secrets

1. Sometimes I feel like I need everyone else so much more than they need me.

2. You’re that one guy who I’ll never completely get over. No matter how many other guys I date, I’ll always have a thing for you.

3. You meant so much to me. It still breaks my heart to realize that even though I cared so much, more than anything, you didn’t.

4. I feel like I’m the problem for my family. I’m the only one who argues with my parents, the only one who doesn’t have straight A’s, the only one who seems to make mistakes. I can’t be perfect, but there’s so much pressure.

5. The thing I wonder most: Did I really make it that easy for you to walk right in and out of my life?

6. I’ve never wished for someone on so many 11:11’s.

7. Promise me. I just need you to promise me that you won’t leave me like all those other boys did. I can’t be hurt like that again, because I don’t know if I’d get through it.

8. I can’t let go of you. Even though I realize that I’m only hurting myself by holding on, I just can’t let go. Even though I know we’ll never be together, I just can’t let go. Even though I can tell that you don’t care about me, I just can’t let go. Even though we were never really together, I just can’t let go. And the worst part is that I have no idea why.

9. I still love you. I may always still love you. And in that sense, I may never let go. But I have let go in the sense that I’ve accepted the fact that we will never be together. I’ve accepted that you’ve moved on, even when I’ll always be waiting for you. I’ve accepted that you don’t care anymore, even though it means the world to me. I’ve accepted that you’ve forgotten me, even when I can’t get you out of my head. I’ve accepted that I lost you, even though you were never really there at all. And I’ve accepted that it’s over, even though it never really began.

10. I want you so bad. So bad that I never stop thinking about you. So bad that I care about you more than anything. So bad that I’ll wait for you, no matter how long it takes. So bad that my heart pounds just thinking about you.So bad that I know that no matter what’s going on in my life, if I’m with you, I’ll be happy. So bad that I never want to live without you. But then I cry myself to sleep at night because I know I’m going to have to.

11. There are so many things I wanna say to you, but I can’t. And it kills me. It kills me to know that it’s too late, that you’ll never know how I feel about you. That you’ll never understand how much I’d give up just to be with you. That you’ll never feel the way my heart beats when I’m with you. That you’ll never see how much you really mean to me. That you’ll never realize how much this hurts me.

12. What hurts the most is not that you don’t love me anymore. It’s that you forgot. You forgot every word, every laugh, every cry, every touch, every hug. You forgot me. And it kills.

13. You’re the first thing I choose, but the last thing I need.

14. I miss you so much. How can the only thing that’s killing me make me feel so alive?

15. “‘Cause you’re everywhere to me, and when I close my eyes it’s you I see.” -Michelle Branch

16. Sometimes I feel like the whole world is crashing in on me. And that’s when I need you the most. Except you’re never there. 

17. If one day you finally realize that we haven’t talked in a while, know that’s it’s not because I didn’t care. Trust me, I did. It’s because you didn’t. 

18. I’m done trying. If you want me in your life, let me know. Bye.

19. I could go anywhere with you, and I’d be happy.

20. “There are many things that I would like to say to you, but I don’t know how.” -Oasis

21. I have found that memories are always infinitely more beautiful than reality.

22. I wish you could see yourself through my eyes. Then you could understand just a fraction of what you mean to me.